I’ve been dreamin for so long now
About a woman who would love me
Once again, I’m so unsure of myself
I just want you to love me
You’ve been here, all this time
I never considered I had a chance
I’m so afraid you’ll reject me too
So far, I’ve screwed up every chance
Maybe you thought I was joking all the time
When I was only tryin to tell you
That I love you, I care for you, I do
Don’t have to believe me, but it’s true
You’re saying that you want some proof
To make sure I’m not just desperate
Well those things I told you, I wouldn’t
Have told you if I was just desperate
I don’t let things like that out of my heart
To any scum that passes me by
I can’t describe the way I felt when you
listened and looked me in the eye
I shared those things ‘cause I thought you cared
Maybe you do, Maybe not, but I know
I never felt better than when I was sittin there
And now, anywhere, with you, would I gladly go
As the deer pants for the water
So my soul longs to be with you
I put my hope in you and my trust
But now, what can I do?
O, God, vindicate me, from where I stand
Let me not be rejected this time
Lift me up, make me a man
Give me peace, and love, to find
My tears have been food for me
All the days, and every night
Then I met this woman
And she can change my life
She forgave me for things I’d done wrong
There’s not many people who care that much for me
Lord, let her accept this simple song
Help her to know, all this comes from deep inside of me
God, give me inner strength to accept what she says
Help me to recover from rejection again
Help her to forgive me, for writing these words
Thank You for helping me, in writing these words
To L.H.
The text above was copied from “My Little Pink Book”, mistakes and all.
From a later document: “This was the first of 28 poems in 29 days, a
streak that would not be paralleled until late 1999 and early 2000.”